Just say no

It just hit me this week that I've been living in a fog the past few months. Since about December, I think things have just been unclear, muggy, and dark.

Not quite sure what put me in the fog, probably a conglomerate of things, but I think it's slowly lifting. It's easy to look and spot those years that were glorious, and those years that were far from it, and I'm sure I'll end up putting this past year in one of those categories, sad to say, probably the latter.

But. Things are looking up. I felt a new urge, one I should have done a loooooong time ago, to say NO to more things. I just have to for my sanity and for me truly focusing on what I'm even doing here on earth.

I have stepped down from coaching cheerleading-officially. They had a parent meeting on Monday night and I was not there. Bittersweet. I have already felt like I've had more spare time than I know what to do with, which is now going to my masters degree. Treading new waters....

Because of me going out of the country this summer, I already had to say no to a week long training of some sort, and that is rather liberating as well.

I'm just cleaning things out. I want to say YES to serving others and helping with events, but I also want to say YES to me reading, and cooking, spending time with friends and family, and figuring out what the Lord wants.

So I hope you try to give me a guilt trip, and tell me I'm not as busy as you, and exaggerate how you work so hard and I'll gladly say, "Yes, you're right. So how's that workin' out for you?"