Anxiety

Whew. I have been cursed with the Jones' curse, I suppose. Somehow, all of the women in our family seem to carry a high dose of anxiety, along with moments of worry and obsessiveness. We are all very strong-willed and strive to pretty much do as much as we possibly can all the time while striving to be perfect and look like we have it all together.

Obviously, that is impossible. I wish we could learn that! I have been having some issues sleeping due to responsibilities and jobs that are constantly reeling in my brain, and not to mention some extreme moments of emotions as well. Ok, seriously Abby?! The world will continue turning whether or not I get some of these things done, but I am such a people pleaser that it is eating me alive! I lay in bed sometimes and think of the things I should be doing that will make me better at my job or a little more pleasing to someone.

I do not think this is healthy, nor do I believe the Lord has this in mind for any of us women, so am praying against it! I know my strengths and weaknesses and I know what I need to work on. But, I also know I am created in a very whole and pure image of Christ and I can not WORK and GAIN His love and acceptance. So, I am holding on to the promises we received at the cross, and am reminding myself everyday that is ALL I need.