...but this isn't the happiest post.
I think Christmas season can bring on a multitude of emotions and feelings. I think a lot of it may have to do with how you viewed Christmas as a child etc.... which is probably a bunch of psychology junk that I really don't know how to explain.
I remember when Christmas was the absolute BEST time of the year, and I literally thought that I had the most amazing Christmases, compared to everyone else! But-I think there are probably a lot of us that feel/felt that way, and I think that's great... because we SHOULD feel that way.
Now Christmas is just... different. The Saturday after Thanksgiving I went shopping by myself in Chatt. and it was just a not fun experience. I see tons of couples hand in hand shopping and being sweet to each other. There are families and strollers and pictures being taken. And here I am... I just sit on a bench in Hamilton Place and people watch... by myself... with my sale items I've bought in stores I probably can't afford... and hurry out into the semi-cold (with no snow) to drive home... alone... and eat left overs or something. I haven't started any fun Christmas traditions because I have no one to start them with... and all I really look forward to is not going to work for 2 weeks-which I can't complain about, because most people don't get that.
The food and sweets I used to love to eat now just scare me because I don't want to gain weight... the presents are too grown-up like cooking utensils and books... the snow, well, is non-existent because TN never gets real snow... and the fun trips to grandma's have now settled in Cleveland because people have husbands and babies now.
I guess we all have to grow up sometime. I bet if I started to really focus on why Christmas is REALLY so wonderful, I probably wouldn't care about all this other frivolous, selfish stuff that seems to be dictating my mood and spirit.
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